I feel so alone rright now

I miss thoses lips I miss thoses eyes. I miss how you like to just stare at me. I remember all the good things you have done. How you said you have something better to look at. How you always call me beautiful. How you stayed up with me you was my shoulder to cry on you took me in when no one listened. Arw you the guy for me should I move on I need something to keep me going one day your superman the next your a sidekick I just wish that all of this wasnt a secret.

My head is going to explode I want to hold you. You are all I think about. I don’t want to tell you how I feel because I messed up I gave up I didn’twait like I said I was, I didn’ttry hard enough. I feel like I want it all I want to wait and I do not I love you with all my heart but I want to see you, I want to hold your hand. I can’t sleep with out texting you, talking to you. I don’t know what iam thinking my mind is going crazy. My heart beats for only you.